Thursday night me and Dig had a fight. Not exactly a fight but I was upset because he was busy with his friends and was not calling me back. He called around 2.30 a.m and I was really very angry and so gave a rude response and slept off as I had office the next day. Was that such a big deal ? I was calling him because he was alone in house and I wanted to be sure that someone was there to accompany him at night. I just wished that he would call back and just talk for a minute. Later he said that he was with his friends and I should leave him alone at times. Like Seriously ?? I never bug him when he is with friends. I want my space and always give him his.But still he is never satisfied. And yeah regarding the fight every time we fight he needs time to rethink his decision. He needs time to decide whether he should stay with me or not. We are together from class 12. We are more of friends than a couple. A lot of times we had nasty fights and we were on the verge of breaking up but still we got back together because i think we are inseparable. But now at this point of our age I don't want to get stuck with this silly fights.I think that yeah we do have problems, its nothing unusual but instead of repeating the same cycle of fights break up and patch it's better we talk and sort out our problems and then move on. But this time things are different. I am really hurt. Why does every time when we have a fight he thinks of breaking up. At this time when my friends are getting married and getting their life settled am still stuck with this confusions and fights. Aren't we expected to behave more maturely? I am really tired of all this and so yesterday I told him to take some time and decide once and for all. The thing is he never gets satisfied with me. He has got some issues. I think he is still not over his past and so he can never be happy with any woman. He has a sort of hatred for women. I tried. I failed. Even I think of getting out of this relation at times when he behaves like this but the mere thought of his absence in my life stops me from doing anything. I think I can adjust. I am used to his coldness and his ego and if he is happy then I will also be happy and so I have asked him to take a decision. If he takes a positive decision I will try to give my best to the relation and if he takes the negative decision I will accept it without a question. I can't imagine the consequences of this fight but I know that this one will have a big impact on both of our lives. Let's see what comes next. Fingers Crossed.
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